When you're significantly disabled, and your country doesn't give a single shit.

Today is one week post-op. I was on the table exactly seven days ago right now.

Today, I also was notified by US SSI Disability that my request to review my hearing from April 2025 has been denied. Which means I'm starting the application process over from scratch, for the third time in six years.

Why was I denied last year? Because the "employment expert" at the hearing decided I could still be a receptionist, even though I have literally failed at being a receptionist because of my health problems, but that wasn't in the time-frame of this hearing, so it didn't count and I can obviously be a receptionist just fine now... never mind that receptionists jobs are going to AI now, anyway. They're waiting for me to die. I am officially too disabled to benefit capitalism, and too young to justify spending social security on, so they'll just let me waste in limbo until I die. You think I'm kidding? Tell that to the 30,000 Americans who died waiting for their case to go through in 2023. This is actual genocide and eugenics at work, that no one gives a shit about.

At least I've had Medicaid this whole time, hence how I could get my hip replaced, but that's going away in exactly a year, so I will definitely face significant time without any health insurance now.

So, uh, did I mention I have a Ko-fi for mutual aid? I haven't been able to earn anything since 2024. And I'm certainly not getting any help from the social security I paid into my whole career.

And, of course, this is fabulous for my mental health as I'm recovering from a major body-altering surgery!

Fuck.