The Nerves.

Just girly things.

So, how do you pre-surgery panic?

I am well medicated against panic attacks, they have to be really, really bad to break through the med barrier and manifest as a full-on attack. I was expecting this recent major medical malady, so I haven't gone into full panic mode yet... but the nausea and vomiting has started.

Especially at night. Now, the first thing I was taught at Fibromyalgia Clinic is that the first rule of Fibro Club is that we do not talk about Fibro Club. Discussing your symptoms in any detail with anyone but your care team in a clinical setting puts your focus on your symptoms, and focusing on your symptoms regularly makes your brain solidify them in as normal more and more. Actively keeping a blog about a pain condition goes completely against everything I've ever been taught about pain management. So, I figured that if I was going to have any psychosomatic reactions to the stress - like the spontaneous pukes - I'd have them as I'm writing blog posts and actively focusing on my pain and my surgery plans. Nope. I'm waking up to it at 2am. Great.

My mom is going to make me ride in her car with a puke bowl in my lap until after surgery now 😅😅